so out of place

so absolutely in the only place i could be

listening to josiah

listening to flicking lighters

my quiet humming and your fingertaps

the fading winter wind no longer bellowing

the sounds of us both living in your car

so out of place

so absolutely in the only place that i could be

in your basement on the couch

feeling each other dully through thick comforters

feeling the sun and the hours and windows

slipping away

lusting to escape the growing springtime light

into the dark

so out of place

so out of sync with the way that we were

when you ask me kindly to go

so you can get some sleep

and i never worked up the courage

to try and touch you

so childish so childish

i drive home waiting for a message from you

swaying like distant heat in the summer